Well, I wouldn't say depressed I guess. Mostly home-sick, already. I've lived in Michigan for over 10 years of my life, visiting my home state Missouri every summer or, if i was lucky, during spring break also. But, in two more weeks, my entire life will litteraly be switched around. I'll be living with my whole family like I've been dreaming of since I was 8, but I won't be with my mother who I've been living with for my entire life. It's starting to finally hit me that I won't get to see her. Sure, I never really liked her all that much. She laid around all day sleeping or making me run out to get her food while she coulda done them herself, and nagging me about how irresponsible I was. But beneath it all, she still loves me with everything she is, and now I'll be leaving her behind. It actually hurts, and when I do leave for college, I don't know if I'll be strong enough to see the pain on her face.

I keep trying to think about how happy my father will be to finally have his daughter back. But the haunting thought of my mom crying keeps popping into my head. I'm nervous, too, because my mom has always done everything for me, and now I'll almost be on my own. Granted I plan on just being with my dad and step mom for maybe a year, living by myself terrifies me. I'm so used to being with my sister :deviconxxraygunjonesxx:, now after three years of that living in a basement all by myself scares me. Plus my dad's basement (which is pretty much an apartment room. I have a living room, pool table, bar, bathroom, laundry room and bedroom) is sortof scary. I always have a haunting feeling down there, it drives me crazy!

But enough with the rant. I need to get it out, I'm starting to get really jumpy about this. I've already began packing, too. I'm also nervous about my fish, if they'll make the 14 hours of the trip. I'm not afraid to say that I love my fishies, especially my butterfly koi! ( btw, she can somewhat walk if I set her down on a table. Koi can do that, but I wasn't sure if butterfly koi could. She won't do it half the time, but I saw her do it once!)

Also, Lucifer. My lil baby boy is coming with me too, that's a huge relief. Although I just learned that my grandparents will be bulldozing their house... which means their 13 ( or 14, i don't really know how many they have anymore ) will stay behind while my grandparents move. Which means... my cat Cody will be there, in shock, maybe afraid. I'm going to beg my dad and kristina to let me take him in. He's also my baby, I watched his mother give birth to him and handpicked him myself to be my cat while I was down there. I don't want him to be scared and confused, and certainly I don't want him wondering off so I won't ever see him again! Totally begging my parents to let me keep him, besides it would be nice to have a cat that will let me PET HIM! -glares at Lucifer, who just stares back blankly-

*ahem* on a different matter....

Concerning art-trades and contest prizes. The two weeks are coming up fast, and with this like I said above I'm getting 'depressed-ish'. This often effects my work, but I won't know how. Sometimes I draw better than I ever have, others I can't draw at all. My latest picture took THREE HOURS to sketch, normally it only takes me 20-30 mins to do.

But , I WILL finish your commish before I move. That is a goal I set for myself, and I'll do it. So no worries!!!!!!!!!

Also, when I move down to Missouri... I seem to have a problem. I will not have a scanner down there, and I'm not sure what type of photoshop they have. I do know they have one, but I can't remember if it's a better version or a lesser version. But if ANYBODY KNOWS WHERE I CAN GET PHOTOSHOP CS3, please lemme know. I can't find it anywhere, even on the internet. I'm sortof worried cuz Photoshop cs4 is around $1,000 bucks o_o oi...

Thanks to whomever actually read this completely. I appreciate it
~Weird Hyenas